Charlie Ingram, several years ago, was elated when I reacted to his singing with joyful tears at a voice lesson. “Everyone knows that when they get you to cry, they are singing really well,” he told me.
At my first viewing of Les Miserables, years ago in Kansas City, I sat in tearful silence during intermission, and proceeded to cry through the second act. The Nutcracker inevitably reduces me to tears at the final scene. My niece Anna didn’t understand my body-wracked, Merkel-esque tears and quivers the last time I saw (with her in NYC) the big “Seize the day” dance break in Newsies.
Give me a happy or meaningful moment with a student, a dying moment in a movie, any dog in duress, and I’m gone.
So I’ve spent a few days trying to figure out what about the Apollo 11 anniversary makes me so weepy. Memories of a happy moment in my childhood? Wonder at the incredible determination of hundreds of thousands of Americans those many years ago? Awe at the vital spirit of discovery and exploration? Loss of a time that was easier, when we believed our leaders and revered Walter Cronkite? Grief over the fact that those days will never come again? All of the above?
Sunday morning. Two weeks since I’d last worked up the sourdough, so after making and resting the dough on Saturday evening, I baked on Sunday morning.
Why did a whole pot of petunias die? I’m replacing them with vinca.
Summer holiday is down to ten days and counting. And I still have so much to do. My new compost barrel is not going to build itself. And the basement is not going to clean itself. And the books are not going to read themselves.
I’m hurting today for one of my private students who is in some duress. Kids can be so insanely cruel.
My neighbors and I both have hummingbird feeders out, and we think we are seeing but two hummingbirds regularly this year.
One of them was quite active on a hot Thursday morning this past week, so I grabbed the camera and went outdoors to await the bird’s return. These are skittish little creatures; sudden moves by photographers create a ‘fly away now’ impulse. So I was still. And I waited.
This little bird was also sticking its beak into the petunias, which apparently contain little nectar. But pollen is there, and so the hummingbird helps flowers pollinate.
The Asiatic lilies are in full bloom, and the daylilies have starting opening up. All sorts of annuals and perennials are grateful for the rain and the sunshine and the chlorophyll and the chance to show off. I get it.